only for that one friend...

80 proof is no excuse, an apology so insincere. out of your mouth you sing out loud for everyone to hear (and i heard).but in my own defense i feel i've been more than patient. the one thing that i can't stand is the fact you show no remorse or class enough to own up to this mistake (it's your mistake).words fell short as your lies grew stronger and through it all i always loved him. when you think things are getting better, remember we're best friends for never.because of this i'm so much stronger. it took a while but i moved on, so when you think things are getting better, remember we're best friends for never.don't initiate a conversation that instigates a confrontation. i've found a new best friend in hatred that says that it's too damn late to save this. you're so good at making bad decisions, but even better at burning bridges. knowing everything that i know now, i'd never put the fire out. i'd rather watch you choke on the smoke from the flames until i know that only ashes remain.words fell short as your lies grew stronger and through it all i always loved him. when you think things are getting better, remember we're best friends for never.because of this i'm so much stronger. it took a while but i moved on, so when you think things are getting better, remember we're best friends for never.when i gave an inch you'd take the mile. if i gave it, you'd take it. you claim to be the story and that's all you'll ever be - just a page in your own diary, that ain't that great to read.words fell short as your lies grew stronger and through it all i always loved him. when you think things are getting better, remember we're best friends for never.because of this i'm so much stronger. it took a while but i moved on, so when you think things are getting better, remember we're best friends for never (remember we're best friends for never)

rain<3

it's raining so hard outside

i sit on my bed staring outside my window

you call me and tell me to come outside

your standing there

and you pull me out into the grass

we spin in the rain

i feel amazing

like nothing can possibly go wrong

the rain falls down my face like tears

and you wipe them away from my eyes

we stop spinning and you look into my eyes

you tell me everything is okay

and that you love me

you pull me so close and we kiss

it feels like were the only people in the world

and my heart races every moment we're together

i love you and i know thats exactly how i feel

i just don't know how to tell you

i've never felt this way before

and i don't want to make a mistake

so i'll keep it inside for now

but one day i will tell you how i feel

i just hope you feel the same way

for now we can dance in the rain

and fall in love with eachother

just know i will always be here for you

no matter what

more than a best friend

she's my best friend

she knows everything about me

she's practically my sister

she knows when something is wrong

even when a smile is on my face

through my worst times

she stuck by my side

she changed who i am

not in a bad way

but in a way only a best friend could do

she made me more confident

she made me believe in myself

she always tells me i deserve the best

even when i feel horrible

i can cry to her and not be judged

i can be completely wrong

but she'll still take my side and fight with me

she's my other half and my confidant

she understands me better than any other person

and i would be lost without her

she's always by my side

and we can tell eachother anything

even though we're not together all the time

we talk non-stop so it makes up the distance

she's more than just a best friend

she's a sister to me

and i wouldn't have it any other way

i love you biff

b.d+m.g

~superspies est. 2008~

pushin' it

i feel the sweat running down my face

i feel my muscles tighten

my arms feel like lead weights

i have no strength to keep going

only six miles done

still another four to go

i can do it

breathe deep and push hard

i pick up my feet

i feel like im moving faster

pull my back up straight

and feel the breeze hit my face

take another deep breath and keep pushing

push harder than before

the last mile is gonna be the hardest one

it's all in the workout

i know i need to finish this

i can't stop i need to keep going

there's time for rest later

runner's mentality takes over me

i clear my mind

start thinking about how good it feels

my muscles are getting stronger

my arms are pumping harder and tighter

i can feel the pounds drop off

in little drops of sweat

the sun is beaming down

its the hottest moment of the day

but i take it all in

the sun wakes me up and i push harder

only a mile left

i'm almost done

give it another 7 minutes and i'll be done

i see the end in my head

i feel the exhaustion setting in

i can't let it beat me

i see the finish line

i'm gonna finish this

go hard and never stop

i hear my coach yelling kick it now

i sprint i feel it in my legs

but i'm gonna finish strong

i sprint and i finally make it

i didn't stop i pushed on

never cheat on your workouts

the feeling is too good when you don't cheat

let the music take me underground

i have it in my hand

i take a sip and it starts pulling me in

my mind starts spinning

soon enough im an entirely new me

the alcohol just flows here

its the land of parties guys and girls

i'm feeling loose malibu is in my shot glass

chasing shots with my best friend

dancing with a new friend

going shot for shot with a new guy

this is an amazing high

i can still control myself i know how to handle it

im with a really cute guy now

we're talking but both of us are feeling the liquor now

we start dancing with everyone

we take a break and drink some more

im really starting to loose control now but it feels so good

letting loose for once in my life

meeting a guy who is totally into me

i let the music take control of me

i let the alcohol set in and let go

i let myself go free and don't regret a thing

hopefully next party will be the same way<3>

we took the night<3

she's not just a friend

she's my best friend

it's like we've known eachother forever

and i'm starting to think we have

i can tell you anything

and know it won't get spread around

you stop my tears before they fall

you're there for me through my best and worst moments

we laugh at our mistakes and

we have more inside jokes than any two people in the world

people hurt me and you're there to protect me

i'd kill for you because we're like sisters

whenever your in trouble i'm there for you

when you're upset i'm there to talk to

no matter what the problem is

we're just a text away

just know that being my biff comes with the knowledge

that no matter where you are, what the problem is

or what time it is...i'll always be there for you no matter what

i'll always be a shoulder to cry on and someone to defend you

we have an amazing friendship and nothing can ever change that

i love you biff =]

"and the reason is you"

he's just that one boy

the one that you'll always like

the one who it could have worked out with

but it didn't

the one who hurt you so badly

but you forgive them for it

i can't quite explain what it is about him

that makes me feel this way every day

i can't get him off my mind and

i always find myself thinking about him

and remembering all the times we had together

i should have been chasing you

i should have been trying to prove that

you were all that mattered to me

you were there for me when i would laugh and cry

sitting there your hand in mine

talking till 4a.m because neither of us could sleep

being there for me through my very worst times

but knowing that i lost you

is what really hurts

you made me stronger and wiser

im going to try my hardest to just be your friend

no promises ill always be just a friend to you

but maybe one day we can be together who knows

for now i'm going to try to get over you

but you kept me in your life and i kept you in mine

i guess i havent fuly lost you

but for now ill continue to be your best friend.

for as long as you want me to be....

all on me

i have the ball in my hand

its just me and the basket

i take a quick glance at my coach

he tells me to straighten out

bring in my elbow and line up my left foot

drop my hips and bend

i smell the leather of the ball as i line it up with my nose

i bring it down to my waist

line my left foot up with the center of the rim

drop my hips and bend my knees

i see the ref motioning the seconds with his hand

i spin the ball in front of me

look up at the basket

take three slow dribbles

let the ball roll back up into my hand

knee bounce till i get the feeling for the shot

bring the ball up to my face

bend then push the ball up and release

swish

relief runs through me

we just won.

before the start

i walk into the locker room

i can smell the scent of so many games before

my coach is sitting there reading notes from game tape

more players walk in with their gymbags

we all match

royal blue jersey and shorts, royal blue breakaways

royal blue warmup shirt saying "it's about us"

i open my bag

my knee brace and sneakers are sitting there

icy hot and prewrap are in the side pocket

i pull off my adiddas slides

i grab my knee brace and pull it up my left leg

flex my knee to make sure its on right

reach for my sneakers and put them on but leave them untied

i sit on the bench just looking down at the floor

thinking

thinking about what the game has in store

trying to figure out what moves to make

what situations are gonna happen

i relax myself then continue to get dressed

i put a pre-wrap band in my hair and

icy hot on my shoulder and knees

i throw on my breakaways

careful to not miss a snap

put on my jersey and warm up t

then i look down again

start to tie my nikes

coach starts talking

"play hard, focus, leave it all out there on the floor

daly you're going right romano kier your going left.

i don't wanna see anyone playing scared.

bring it in and line up this is our year ladies"

im ready i hear the other team going in the gym

im gettin pumped i hear the music playing for us

game on.

game on<3

we're chillin in the tunnel

waiting to come out with all lights on us

we hear the crowd

wer're getting pumped off of the cheer

coach is talking

i can't quite hear what he's saying

but i remember enough from the locker room

"focus, keep shooting, play hard defense

use your speed, but break down before you reach your man

don't hesitate, drive hard to the basket, keep your head up

i don't want just your head in the game i want your heart in the game

this will be our year ladies bring it in...blue devils on three"

we all bring it in the tunnel is tight so we squeeze really close

holding hands we say a quick prayer

"saint dominic pray for us. our lady of victory play for us. SDA on three.

ONE TWO THREE S D A!!! lets go saint dom's bring it in girls"

we stick to tradition coach puts his hand down first then we pile ours on top of his hand

one hand in only we squeeze in really close and listen to coach

"i want defense on three ladies ONE TWO THREE...DEFENSE!"

we line up for our entrance now

two captains leading the forwards and centers to the left around the court

me the third captain leading the guards to the right around the court

we break out into the gym looking up at the light as we run out of the door

sprinting around the perimeter of the court to the other end

high fiving as we run past eachother on the opposite baseline

hitting half court coach throws the other captain a ball and we start layups

my hearts racing i rebound and kick the ball to the next girl in line

fast paced and running i get the ball and go up for the layup i make it

they swing the ball over to my side so i start left hand layups

a minute left on the warmup clock and we run back to the bench

we pull off our warmup shirts and breakaways and toss them behind the bench

the starting five are sitting listening to coach

i sit there and he says "daly, you have the advantage here they can't guard your left hand"

it's a relief and i'm ready to start the game now

buzzer sounds...game on

crush really does mean what it says...short story #1

it was an ordinary night and Kelly was just sitting on her steps, staring at the sky. Kelly spent every night sitting on those steps thinking about the day that was slowly coming to and end. she's one of those girls that have her phone attached to her at all times, so naturally she had her phone sitting right next to her while she relaxed on those steps. soon enough she recieved a text from Mike, but it wasn't the normal "hey beautiful, whats up" it simply said hi, she knew something was wrong. kelly and mike were on the verge of being boyfriend and girlfriend, they had been talking and getting really serious for the past 3 months and they were both falling for eachother. but recently mike had been acting quite distant to kelly even though only a week ago he had told her how much he is falling for her and he can picture them being together really soon. she basically realized something was up when he didnt text her at all that day but he had been texting their friends all day.

as her phone vibrated next to her, her heart dropped and she hesitated to read the text from him. after a few seconds of contemplation she picked up her phone and began to read what he had written. he wrote, "umm kel i realli need to tlk 2 u can i call u??". kelly answered yes and had no idea what to think. millions of ideas were running through her head and she was lost in the night sky. her thinking was abruptly stopped when her phone began to ring and she knew it wasnt a friend calling because he has a specific ringtone..."i wanna dance with somebody"...it was their first song together and it meant alot to both of them. her heart began to race as she reached for her phone and answered. the instant she picked up he raced to say "kelly you know exactly how i feel about you...it's just i can't umm like i don't know i ummm kelly i don't know if i can do ahh i really just wanna be friends right now. i'm leaving for college in 6 months and i don't want a girlfriend right now i just don't see it working between us right now. well i really just don't see it working between us i'm sorry kelly i really am this is killing me doing this to you i dont want to hurt you at all i just can't do this anymore...i just don't wanna string you along because i like you and then leave for college and not be there for you it's not fair to you and i can't put myself in a position to hurt you. i want you to be happy." there was a silence and then she calmly told him she understood but truthfully she didn't. a single tear rolled down her face followed by a stream of tears as she continued to talk and silently cry.

the boy she thought was perfect for her, that she fell for, that she gave her all to, that she put her heart on the line for, took her heart and broke it. it came to the point where she couldnt stand to hear his voice anymore because she was crying harder than before and she was quickly loosing control over keeping her voice calm. her mom always told her to never let someone that hurt you see you cry or hear that you are hurt. be strong and fight through it until you cant take it anymore and you have to break down. kelly told him she had to go but as she said it her voice cracked and he realized she had been crying through the entire time they were talking. at that moment "The Last Song Ever" came on the radio and she completely lost control. mike was trying to tell her to talk to him and thats he's sorry he didn't mean for this to happen but she hung up she couldnt bear to listen to his voice. she never thought he could hurt her this bad but he did and the pain didnt disappear it just got worse and broke her down to nothing. the next few weeks mike tried his hardest to get her to talk to him but she refused to talk to him she couldnt put herself through it because he meant so much to her but he proved that she meant so little to him.

the next few weeks were a challenge to get through...not only did she have the SAT's she had parties where he would be at but she couldnt miss her best friends birthday parties. even though they went to completely different schools the subject of mike and kelly always came up and never got any easier to listen to. kelly and mike went to brother sister schools because kelly went to an all girls school and mike went to the all boys school, and of course they both shared friends from those schools. april rolled around and two months had passed since kelly stopped talking to mike, even though he made many attempts to talk to her in person and through texts. one chilly april night at tori's birthday party, mike pulled kelly into a room and locked the door telling her they cant get out till they talk. after a while of silence and kelly crying, she finally told him how much he had hurt her and everything she felt. she forgave him but he knew he would have to earn her friendship back because of everything that happened.

through it all she grew stronger and realized people will hurt you and life is going to knock you down and beat you up but you have to realize that your more than just a person you're a survivor. through the pain she learned who her real friends really are and who truly cares about her.